Yeah, another rant. I'll try not to post so many rants anymore but I can't help it. I need a place where i can unleash my emotions, uninterrupted.
If you don't wanna read rants, exit.
So this rant is about my brother, which I'm starting to think is heartless. Why? Well, I was drawing an OC of mine (surprise surprise, it's not for an RP group.) when he burst in and lay beside me. He then proceeded to tell me, "You can't seriously have drawn that. I bet you just got it from the internet and edited it."
Wow, thanks brother. Way to get support from a close family member. Really, thanks.
Now before you say anything about it being a joke, let me just say that joke or not, it still hurt. He has a brain, he should know what to joke about and what not to. And he lives with me, I'M HIS SISTER FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. He should know that my self-esteem, especially when it comes to my drawings, is dramatically low. For him to joke about that is just plain cruel of him.
And if you say anything about constructive criticism, believe it or not I accept constructive criticism very well. But there's a difference between being helpful and being downright RUDE. What kind of person would stoop so low as to not believe her hard work? (Well, not exactly hard, I'm still procrastinating on my apps, but if you take the first drawings I uploaded here, which was around 10 months ago, and compare them to the drawings I create now, you'll see a dramatic improvement. Even someone with low confidence can see their improvement, you know.)
And I wouldn't really be bothered by all this if he was someone from school, a random stranger, a troll from the net, or whatever. But he's my own flesh and blood. And even though I hate him sooo much right now, I care about what he thinks. And what does he think? That apparently he doesn't believe that I could draw well. He doesn't believe in me.
I mean, I know I can't hold grudges for too long. (A certain someone kept pushing my buttons at school and I always forgave her. She did, however, crossed the line when she poured water all over my books.) But I will never ever forget this incident. And I will NEVER, EVER forgive him. Ever.
And call me a baby, but I actually cried about this. It hurts, okay. It hurts when a close person in your life doesn't believe in your hard (not really but still) work.
Actually, like my sister, I don't know if I hate him or simply lost all of my respect for him. But at least my sister believes in me. Currently I love my sister much more than my brother. I don't care how bossy she is.
One more thing. What benefits him when he told me that? What does he earn? Well, if he was aiming for my hatred and disrespect, congratulations to him, he got it. Oh boy, did he GET IT.
I just don't understand why he told me that. Even if it was a joke, every joke has a bit of truth in it. At least that's what I believe. I don't know about you guys.
Okay, I think that ends my rant. Sorry about that, I just had to let it out. I've never been so insulted before.